最终目的

我不想那么多了。。。。。我只想最终目的是想和她在一起，不希望看到她难过。。。。。简简单单。。。。我不想那么多了。。。。。。

找回自己~

最近的我不是我。。。。。我真的想忘记这段感情。。。。才能找回自我。。。。如果没有缘分，勉强也没意思~ 等到两个人在一起时。。。连对方什么感觉都不知道时，那时候真的彻底失望！还要更伤我的心。。。。我如何继续这段感情~ 要我给你时间~　有想到我感受吗？爱情不是等你有空才能陪的　如果明白还要这样做．．．等到被伤到一种地步～可能真得无法挽回了．．．希望我跟她都能学到．．．什么叫爱情．．．．我心很疼很疼了．．．．我不想要爱情了！．．．我想自己一个人就好．．．．．自己反省．．．．

发呆+ 伤心~

最近总是发呆哦....要不然就伤心咯....很累....很累了....不懂要做什么.....我发呆也可以一整天哦...很不想这样.....有人告诉我要怎样吗....很烦.....希望时间可以快快的过吧.......

相信~

两个人在一起。。。。最重要。。。。互相信任。。。有时候，心里很乱~因为不知道她还会骗我吗....我不想再被伤害了.....如果他真的不喜欢我....我希望他会对我坦白...不要欺骗我感情了.....最后....我选择相信她....希望她不会再骗我了....不然...我真的不会信她了.....毕竟我跟她都要3年了.....我也很懒惰去找另一个她.....如果情侣做不到....朋友不知道...还能做得到吗.....因为....忘掉感情....真的是很难....尤其是被背叛的....好难受....我做错我会改.....只是希望她也会改....我相信她....希望她也是真心的....最后也要靠缘分...如果没有缘分...我也没得好勉强....该发生的迟早也会发生~ 顺其自然吧....

人

人的思想。。。。。真复杂。。。。真的好像。。。简简单单。。。。就好了。。。。。

感情~ 绕一大圈~ 结果~我领悟了神的存在~

上帝~我对不起你~可能一直以来我都不相信你~ 可能跟我学的书~刚刚好跟你的道~有冲突~ 可是我现在起~相信您了~你显明你的能力~我祷告诉求你说~如果你能把我的女朋友过平常生活日子,只希望她安全~不再找那个男的~我就立刻答应你把我搜集的不应该看的戏都洗完了~ 我一直唯一遗憾的事~而不能跟神你坦白就是我对不起神~看了不应该看的东西~做了不应该做的东西~ 但是我没有想过要伤害任何人~可能恶魔影响我~人为一的优点是有感情~弱点也是感情~神~ 我以你的名对你发誓~我不会在那样做了~一定不会~ 我要重新做人~主~啊..希望您帮帮我~让我走到你的门前来~

现在才发现那么的爱她~

人~有的时候~ 拥有时不在乎她~ 没有的时候.....后悔莫及~ 所以~以后~我要对她好好~对我父母,家人都好好的~希望这一切都不会变~ 我们一起加油吧~ 面对未来~我觉得人跟动物没什么两样~除了~有感情之外~所以呢~我们要珍惜我们的感情~这才能分出我们人类的特征~ 为人类加油~^^

每个人都有想不通的时候~压力~

在你的生活中？什么是最重要？ 钱？爱？家庭？ 相信每个人都在追求这些东西~又想过吗？就算你得到了这些东西~生命还有什么呢？某些人因为受不到某种刺激就放弃了生命～可能他／她就想这个是解脱吧～　人就是那么样的矛盾～　你们可成想过２０，３０，４０，５０　到　７～８０那时的想法吧？我相信～　他们还是活在自己的世界里吧～　永远他不出那个圈圈～　为了自己最重要的目朝那个方向去～　当人越看得出这个世界～就会觉得很矛盾～　为何我会在这里～我活下还有什么意义～但试问有谁能放弃在这个世界的东西～　灵命和科学上？　你会选那个呢？　相信蒙在鼓里的人是最开心～没烦恼的一族～　因为他们不需要懂，只需活在自己的世界就够了～　你相信吗？人活在到某个程度里～超越了某个阶段～会要求更高的旨意～无论如何～人生命渺小～豁出自己吧～　活出自己的每一个时刻～　所谓材狗说一句话～人生有多少个１０年～　让娱乐和咨询把我们蒙在这虚假的世界里吧～永远他不出那个圈圈～　　

Belief~ Human feeling~

Human feeling r undefinable~ As a human~ we will encounter sadness, happiness, anger, lonely and so on~ Though~ Sometime~ we will loss in a way~ Somehow we need to find ourselves back~ No 1 can do that except from our own will & ur belief (god)~ Although it is very difficult~ Just 1 point~ Never Give Up in any way~ Remember that~

First day Eng work practice~

Today was a busy day for me~ i learns a lot of things while practicing my engineering work~ At this time~ I realizes what is real things in work society and differ cultures for differ places and ppls~ which make me~ grow older and learn other cultures by understand em~ 1 more things~ work hard doesn't mean more $$~ we have to choose wise in our profession and places and know ur right~ that really important for our profession~ learn to know what are the needs of ur company that u r work for~ Kept those confidental secret for the company~ DO the best things for the company cause the company will do the same for u~ what make this sane~ that y choosing correct company will be the answers~ Anyway all these things u must really exp urself and how to start from btm~ All this because company need a lot of 人才~~ show ur talent to make company expand further ^^only that the company will know ur existence ~ Sometimes big company doesnt mean u have great opportunities~ cause u will meet with and and competitive about it~ Wish all my friends~ having great & present LI~

MY study end here~ but i just start practice my profession~ ^^

Today is my last exam paper~ ^^. I feels really great lol....BUT it the time for me to practice my engineering work~ ^^ I thinks i will needs a lot of work to do cause i will done my practical in johor bahru~ zzz For the moment, i still needs to settle my registration on the institute of Engineer and also Board of Engineer before i can start practicing engineering work in malaysia~. Hopefully all will be on schedule~..... Meanwhile, maybe i could took a visit in JB. ^^ Anyway, whatever place it is~ i thinks there r not much differences~ cause it just soft of hypermarket and so on~ just hopefully can meet different ppls~ with different cultures~ lol...^^. New working environment~ >.< ~

Lost the way~

Recently i found out 1 singer from japan, she called 中島愛. she is really special, the way her singing and dance, her appearance and most important~ her attitude! i like her performance very much~ Meanwhile i lost the way too, today me is not yesterday myself. Some ppls will remain the same, but i felt i have change in a way. Cant find any interest things in my life and i lost my interest to certain things too. That lead me lost the way~. Anyway sure got solution for it, i m sure i can look into it and figure it out~ Lost interest lead to miserable....and that quite horrible feeling~...Lost interest = no destination~ It really frustrated...Some time i really always ask myself, what do human really live for? what is actually our future?~ Hopefully i can really find it out (maybe it all bout GOD that creating us, believe him will get us power and will)~>.<~ Maybe that what entertainment is for~ it make us feel better and lost in time~ And when time passes, we will getting older vision getting blur...lol...oh ...what i m thinking? zzzz.. ~ well ~ we r the human~

她~（SE）

每个人都有自己的特征，千万不要应为自己觉得是对的，就去告诉她要改这个，哪个的。。。。因该。。。当她改到变另一个人时而又不是你说需要的。。。。那时就会绝望和心痛。。。。为何自己的女朋友会是这样。。。。往往和自己想法中。。。差异多，变化多。。。。。两人最重要是沟通，如果在一起时，等到对方要什么都不知道的话。。。就会变成两个世界的人。。。自己很常在跟自己讲“不会的“，可是自己的想法常常背叛着自己心。有时候会觉得很累，很多顾虑。想起来，其实单身也不错的，会比较自由些。。。现在，表面上是较自由的。。。可是。。。心灵上却空虚和不自由。。。以前总是跟她讲， 做人要独立， 现在他做到了。。可是。。在感觉不到她的温柔。。。可能是自己问题罢。。。怕有一天会对感情冷漠起来。。。想起有点害怕。。。我理想的爱情。。。两人在一起开心，谅解和了解对方就可以了。。。都不一定要天天打几通电话。。。。可能是有个很长的时间见不到她的感觉。。。又怕见到她。。。又会变成陌生人去。。Zzz

Final Test (SE)

Next Monday, i going to have my first exam. Every time come to the final exam, i felt stress. U know y?. That because inner of my self always putting stress on me....lol...It said, oh w.y.lee, got exam wor, if u not study u will fail and get bad result. Then instantly i will start holding my book and start do revision without hanging around. lol.. Then without noticeable .....it direct put stress on ME >.<. Now i know the way to reduce it, said to yourself, cheh exam only ma....even i get 50/100, no need that tension....lol.... But eventually, stress will always on top of us.....lol....because of the time factor and so on. We really get rid of those bad feeling, er....maybe we need to think, either we want moderate result or good result, if choose dy...then we can start earlier of the revision (neglect all other entertainment)(more entertainment = more stress build up)lol. But sometime, tension really push on us which give a driving force on us which no bad too. Just sometime we need to balance it with listen to music and playing some games. ^^ scheduling our time table is the most critical part of it, if u cant hold back the tension, then u need to do the schedule the time table. But for me, i already used of it dy....i mean the tension that be my follower for quite a time since...i think since i started my first dploma..lol....Now, i want to take a rest ...lol....because my driving force gone dy...lol....this my last sem....i think i get for "somewhat" result is ok dy....^^ so feeling quite ok (eventhough got abit tension too) well to9 i have bbq also hehe....ENJOYED ^^ with a TAN and A Teoh....hehehe ...~ That a way of reducing stress too but dont follow wor...if u have test on monday...wakaka

^^ Feel really relief for the very first time

Today i felt relief after finish my psm2. Realllly feel like my study have been over and reach the end of the road dy...^^ So my next target is getting for the IR...hehehe. I feel very happy today cause after that presentation, can have BBQ too. i had learn how to "panggang" things le....>.<. cool though even it taste just like carbon add on hehe. Then, i meet such a person who so so hardworking 1. His name is nic dan nic. lol....If my supervisor see this, he must said....oh no...unbelievable..lol.. that will be very funny lol...But truly for what i had see, u will have really done well in future and that for sure and just keep it up. U just let me learn so much too. The bad new is i cant go back to my hometown cause i cant find LI place in kch, hopefully i can get 1 before the duedate. For the moment, i had to find rent house in johor, hopefully all will be ok. (hahaha, for 3 month only ma >.<) oh no i forgot to take a pic on my presentation dress lol...and hair style too...haha..cause i use jel stylish le. what to do, have to cover my hair color, afraid being scold later...lol....otherwise it is cool to have wax and spray stylish de...hehehehe...Anyway, what day for me, and michel wong, u r rite lo...haha...to write for everyday in blog..haha...but i prefer to write once a week le...and maybe can write for special event too (SE) hehehehe.....Michel wong, if u see this ar,....then u must noe u lie to me...cause i dont see any msg or comment le...>.< hehe..er....until then see ya...^^

UTHMCF

Today, i felt miserable cause it my last time for 晚堂崇拜. i had a lot memories with the people here and pastors. Shi mama, thank for the dinner which was really delicious and quite of mineral inside ^^. I will remember your cooking all the time. Here, i want to thanks to the pastor lai, shi lao shi, shi mama, the church in the batu pahat and air hitam. I had really learn much from the pastor lai about the message from GOD. Before that i think i have lost the way, really loss the way and i going to fix it. I know sometime i am weak and i hope i can make myself improve. But i have faith in GOD that Jesus will lead me into the right path. I will remember my word, that i going back to kuching and find my own church. Here, i also want to thank to the CF members (zhon jie, liang ming, ing ming, chai chen, cathering ting, wan quoi, kelvin, michel, peter, xuet yi, hiromi, a sim, zhi qiang,and so much more) and i really have fun together in these 3 years in UTHMCF. Thank to CF for giving a really wonderful gift for me. I really appreciate it. All the best for my CF. MAY GOD BE WITH EM ALWAYS....

My new blog ^^

Today, i saw michel's blog, so i decided to open 1 too. So much things in my mind i want to share bout. Hmn......This sem really give me a break cause i m so free and that will be my last sem too. I will miss u guys...^^ teoh, tan, tan and so much more...^^ Hope u guys doing well in your future. Future undertaking!!. i missing the day we go out lim teh, haha until 2am or even 4am....what a memory for me...i will remember it, thank guys. i just finish edit my seminar paper and slideshow for my PSM presentation. Now still left maybe 3 or 4 assignment, hopefully i m hardworking enough to finish it off. I think so much grammar mistake here, so bear with me k ^^. Hmmn....i think in future i will post more info things in here to share with your guys cause i afraid it too bored to just hear my feeling and thought. Anyway, i will like to share a piece of my mind to u guys too ( if u wish too la hehe ^^). Now left 29 before i leave this Parit Raja place, although my memory here not that great because of the situation here but i still miss the ppls here, i think i will remember them in my life !. Especially to my CF friends, it really be good around u guys!!. i have fun joining CF activities and improve my relationship with GOD. michel wong, if u see this, remember after going back to kuching, find me go swimming k, i will be waiting for u...hehe. And then, to my other friends too like sze fong and her friends, jia wuen, ah eng, ban huat, Alvin my old roomate, tiger, a sim, xiao hai zi max, so much more (cant remember oh..poor memory of mine), tq u guys for appeal in my life and i really appreaciate it. i feel i m the luckier guy because where ever i goes, the god have gv me the good good friends for me. Till then, see you guys k, hope u guys in good condition and MAY GOD BLESS U ALL ^^. i think i will post in here once a week for my thought and maybe new sharing too ^^ see ya ~

OMG, i forgot my supervisor mohd El shayeb too and his master student, MARTIN. thank to you martin, u teach me alot ....without your help, i was unable to finish my thesis in time...thank you very much ^^, wish ur future undertaking. But i believe in u that u can do really well. until then see ya ^^